2001, the year I graduated high school. I never thought I was fat in high school. I knew I was bigger than my friends but I had a really confident additude. I wore bikini's (looking back that was def a bad idea), I had a ton of friends...I wasn't ashamed of myself...I actually thought I was pretty cute ;)
Until I came across this photo. This was taken at my mom's wedding April 2001. I remember that day feeling so cute in my outfit, thinking I pulled off a good look. Surprise!!! No you didn't Morgan. Looking back at this I am disgusted with how I look & even more with myself knowing that I let myself get that big & I didn't even notice. I've even asked people in my life now, Why didn't you tell me I was that fat? Most people say they didn't know or realize it till now...in my heart I know it's because they loved me too much too hurt me. I need that though, the tough love is good for me...even now when I need a little bit of "Bitch Please!" I turn to certain people that I know will give it to me.
I have a past, just like everyone...my parents were divorced when I was young. I've dealt with sexual abuse & I've seen & experienced things that no other child should. Maybe some of that has contributed to my weight gain? I'm not sure, what I do know is that I won't go back there. I won't be the fat chick with the pretty face again. I'm not even the same person I was back then. I have a new outlook on life & how I want to live it. That person in the picture doesn't exist. That fat & unhappy person is gone because I made a change. You can too!
I made this monumental change, took that fork in the road that has lead me to this great life with wonderful people that I can count on. And looking back, all those bad things in my life made me choose this course and I am happy where I am today and for that, I wouldn't change any of it.
Stay Strong.Work Hard.
You will get there.