Thursday, September 25, 2014

Watching my weight

Eating is my biggest struggle when it comes to losing weight. I thoroughly enjoy working out & honestly, it's the only break I get from the kids during the day. Are there times I don't make it? Sure and I usually yell at myself later but there are just those days with 3 kids that I just can't get out....so I have to do something around here to get it done. But food.....delicious food....it's my weakness. So when I need to make a change, it comes from the food direction. My decision to start weight watchers wasn't a hard one. I've done it before after each baby. I've tried to do it on my own in years past but it never works out the same. I need the meetings. I need the accountability. So I joined back a few weeks ago and I am trying my hardest to stay on track. First week I was on program, I didn't do very well, I didn't track, I didn't watch my foods and I felt it on the scale that next weigh in day when I gained 3 pounds. I was so mad at and told myself I had to do it better next time so I started again and at my meeting yesterday I weighed in at 3.4 pounds less than I did last week. So I lost the 3 pounds I put on and then some. I'll take it!

So this week started my 3rd week on program and so far, I've been doing really good. Watching my points & getting creative with my cooking.


Strawberry Shortcake 3pts

Taco Salad 6pts



I've been posting these photos on Instagram so make sure you follow me there as well as give the points values. If you ever want me to re-vamp a recipe, let me know!

















So here's hoping to changing my outlook on food and this whole weight loss struggle....the struggle will always be there if I don't change my eating habits. 

So here it goes.....











Now on to that giveaway I promised!

May Designs is giving one of my lucky readers there own personalized notebook! I love these booklets! And they have all kinds, from babies to weight loss and everything in between. And they are so cute! I love being able to personalize them to exactly my mood or theme. 


These are the ones I've made and use all the time....they also make great gifts! Simply Enter below! and Go!
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Sunday, August 24, 2014

Confessions.....

When I started this blog, I had to come up with a title.....I wanted it to be something that made sense to what I was writing about....what I would be talking about & sharing with you & sharing with myself. My Confessions.
I've shared a lot with you along the way....and coming up on 3 years gets me looking back at old posts, old confessions. I really didn't think it was going to take me this long to lose the weight....and it's still not all the way gone, I have about 40lbs to go. I guess I had more confidence in myself, in my ability to get this shit done. I haven't, obviously....I've learned a lot though over these 3 years and I still make excuses.....(that should be an obvious one seeing as I'm still not at goal but ya never know) I don't eat right. In fact, I've been eating a lot of crap lately....Twinkies (yes plural) a burger with onion rings & bbq sauce & I had Chinese food yesterday. I don't always workout...fun fact: it's been about 2 weeks....yeah I suck.
But that's why I write....that's why I put it all out there because I'm not perfect. I'm just a normal girl, struggling to lose the weight....and I've struggled my whole life. Am I happy with what I've been doing lately? Not in the least, but I haven't been able to come out of it....until this last day or so where something inside of me screamed "Why are you settling for this life, this weight?" I don't want to settle, I don't want to just "adjust" to being his weight. I've done that my whole life, I've done it over these last 3 years. I'm not doing it anymore. I'm fat, I'm unhappy, I'm unmotivated, I'm making excuses. All things that I don't want to be...so why am I settling? I don't know the answer but I do know what helps are my confessions. To you, to my friends & family....most of all, to myself. I'm not happy but I can't complain about it if I'm not willing to fix it...so this is me starting the process of fixing something that's broken.....and it all starts with a single confession....

What can you confess today?






Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Back to School, Back to Work!

It's that time....can you hear it???? It's the sound of silence! That can only mean one thing.....The kids are back to school, woohoo!!!! I'm super excited, if you can't tell, and although I still have 1 home with me, I've already gotten so much done & it's just day one. I love back to school time...I feel like I can get back to a normal, regular routine, working out, back to cooking more at home. It's just a great time and honestly, it then heads into my favorite part of the year....Fall.....and when you live in Florida, you look forward to the fall.

So back to me, well I weighed in this am at 201.6lbs. I'm not happy about it but haven't done anything to change so I can't be mad at anyone but myself. I'm not a morning person so I've been easing myself into getting up at 6:30am so that I can get in a fasted cardio workout before the kids get up. I'm back with my macros after taking a slight break the last week just cause of the back to school craziness. My workout plans this week are to do 3 strength training days & 2 cardio days along with the fasted cardio every morning. I'm not going to be doing very many evening workouts so that I can be home wth the kids and husband and do the wifely things I'm supposed to cause that shit has been slacking.....

Anyone else find when they write things down they do better? I definitely do so I was so excited to see my journals come in today from May Designs! Have you heard of them? OMG, you need to check them out! They have sales all the time and I love their stuff. You can make it totally you & personalized. 



I'm working on getting a giveaway together for y'all here soon! In the meantime, head on over to their webpage and check out their stuff!

So what can you do today to make a change? I'm trying my hardest to get back on track and I know I have to make serious changes in order to do that. So what can you do today? Maybe take a walk? Make healthier choices or even something as simple as writing everything you eat down. It's the little things that make big changes down the road!

Have a great week!

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Finding my inner strength

I'm an "Instant Gratification" kinda gal. I think most of us are honestly. And that's okay but for me, it can put me in a bad mood.....
I started a new workout regimen July 7th which basically added more weight training and less cardio. I haven't done as much weights as I had planned too but at least I've been trying. I have lessened the cardio but I think because I've done less cardio and haven't increased the weights as much as I had hoped, I'm not seeing the results that I wanted to. It's my fault....I'm not doing what I should in the exercise department & although I'm following my macros, I just started that so it's not a reliable source yet. When I hop on the scale and it doesn't say what I want it to, it frustrates me! It makes me not want to workout, and eat a shit ton of bad things.....and then the thing with all that is, one day turns into two and then four and then it's been a week and I'm up 10lbs. This vicious cycle is what I feel like I've been in for the last year almost. When I stumble upon photos of me from this time last year, I get so depressed.




This photo is from exactly 1yr ago and I feel like I can't find this strength I used to have. I think this sort of lifestyle takes a long time to get used to. I didn't grow up fit & healthy....I lived my life eating and doing whatever I wanted and most of that "doing" did not include working out. So to look at my life now, it's a far cry from what I used to do but I get so tired of it....like why aren't I skinny already? It's just so frustrating! Which then starts my vicious cycle again....



So here I am....still fat & making a lot of excuses and expecting results that I mean, obviously aren't going to happen if I don't find that thing inside of me that makes me work harder, eat better....that inner strength. Something I know I have and I feel very slightly every so often.....that gives me hope that it's still there but I just need to dig a little harder to find it. It's probably going to take a hell of a lot more work as well but I can't go back to the old me.....and although I've gained some weight back, I'm still smaller than I was before and I have 3 little motivators to do better :)









These kiddos are my world, and I would do anything for them....and that means getting healthy so I can spend as much time as I can with them. 










Finding my inner strength is going to be tough, but I know it's in there. I can hear my grandmothers familiar voice telling me I can. I just gotta keep moving forward and try not to think about being skinny now & start thinking about being healthy for life..and finding my strength within.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Macros Schmacros......

You know you've heard about them....honestly, I had no idea what people were talking about but as I've gotten healthier & looked further into ways to improve my diet, I stumbled across IIFYM (if it fits your macros)
The concept is pretty easily understood once you wrap your head around it. You eat a certain amount of calories based on your activity level and divide that number into the 3 different groups; Carbs, Fat & Protien. Everyone is different and you have to play around with your #'s to get something that works best for you. I did this months ago and I loved being pretty free to eat what I want and I was mostly full throughout the day, there were some days that couldn't eat everything I needed to but had to force myself. The only downside to it is you have to be good at math & good at planning...and I am neither of those things, lol.

If you follow Megan over at Skinny Meg like I do, she blogged about doing this for herself and I was super excited! I love her blog and her honesty when it comes to things....I also love watching her progress so when I saw her photos the other day, I was amazed! It's a 15lb difference but what a change....her body is changing and that's just what I need. So I'm giving counting my macros another shot. I set up My Fitness Pal to reflect the ratios I wanted and I track everyday so follow along with me. It's super easy to do if you haven't already, just click Goals at the top and then customize! So once I did my calculations on Macro Fit, this is what it gave me:


I'm excited to try some new foods but the hardest part, will no doubt, be getting in all that protien. It's a lot and I know I don't even come close to it on a day to day now so that will be my biggest change.....but I need this change. Already with adding more weights & doing less cardio, I see my body starting to change shape. Less in the middle, order legs & arms....I'm hoping with this knowledge I become a better & healthier person. I'm not perfect & I don't claim to know everything, but I do know you have to find something that works for you & your lifestyle. I'm hoping that this is it.

So onto that giveaway! Brady Bands is an awesome company started by an even better woman and she gave me a couple headbands to give away to my readers!



First off, if you haven't tried her headbands, your missing out. They stay in place, I've never had a problem, they are oh so cute & go to a great cause. All you need to do is like Brady Bands & I on Facebook! Super simple! I'll take entries till Sunday, Good Luck!
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Thursday, July 17, 2014

New Plan . New Me

Sorry I've been absent from blog posts for a while. I've been working really hard to try to get back into a routine that I can stick with and that's challenging so I have sort of been focusing on that and not so much of the writing but I know there are people out there that read this so I decided I needed to get a post up ASAP.
            So, after the 3 day refresh disaster, I was feeling a little defeated. I don't like quitting things that I start....when I start something I want to finish it all the way. I honestly really wasn't happy with the product though....I didn't like it, how it made me feel, how hungry I was. I just felt like I was doing all the wrong things to my body and I've done all the wrong things for a long time and I just didn't want to do it anymore so....I sat down with my trainer friend to come up with a plan. When I started this journey, I religiously wore my BodyMedia Armband.  And I lost weight. I burned anywhere from 3,500 to over 4,000 calories some days. I saw my body change but then I became too confident in my ability to do it on my own so I stopped wearing it. Along the way, I've slapped it on to see where I'm at and am usually quite surprised that I'm not burning calories like I used to. As of lately, I'm only hitting the 2,600 calorie mark & that's on a day that I'm exercising...some days I almost hit the 3,000 mark but that's a day that I'm running around like a mad woman and that's not realistic & not often. In turn, I'm not losing...I've actually gained over the last 9 months.... All of this makes me then realize that maybe I'm eating too much, too little, not doing the right exercise...whatever it may be, it tells me something ain't right! As my girl Ashley always says, "don't take the damn thing off!" I never listen....this time though, I decided to take her advice...and the advice of my trainer friend and put it to good use.


This was after one of my yard work days, whew!


So I started counting my calories & wearing my damn armband again. I came up with a plan, with the help of both my girls. It includes a hell of a lot more weights, less cardio & a better eating plan. So here was my first 2 weeks:

7/7: none
7/8: cardio am / Zumba pm
7/9: Step
7/10: Arm Day am / CX & Zumba pm
7/11: cardio
7/12-7/13: heavy yard work
7/14: none
7/15: Leg Day am / CX & Zumba pm
7/16: CX & Step am
7/17-7/19: none
7/20: cardio

So out of 14 days, I worked out 9 of them...and went hard. My arms & legs felt like jello for days and I had more energy. My calorie burn started to get higher and I watched myself hit the 3,000 calorie burned mark just about everyday, even on a few days that I didn't hit the gym! It's exciting to see my body working in the right direction again. I'm lifting heavy and I've knocked down the cardio. I need to see those changes....and although it's not reflected on the scale yet, I can see my inches going down and my body fat % went down too. 

So it seems like I'm back on track....and if you don't follow me on Instagram, you should! I post my food, recipes & workouts there....so go friend me!




Monday, July 7, 2014

3-Day Refresh Recap part 2

So today's diet consisted of the exact same thing as yesterday. I didn't enjoy Day 1 so I just left it the same and tried again. I'm going to be very honest with you. I don't want to sugar coat things just to get readers....I'm done with it, I'm not going to even do the last day because it simply wouldn't matter. The refresh claims to be "not a starvation diet" but it is very close to it. You are eating barely 900 calories, and all of those come primarily from the shakes and the healthy fats you are supposed to consume. I have zero energy, a constant headache & (tmi alert) haven't used the bathroom but 1 time. I will say, because of not eating so much, I am drinking a lot more water which I will continue to do from here on out. I will also say it has helped diminish my cravings for the crap. I'm so hungry I actually want real food, lol. I lost a pound, great....I'm not sure how all these people lost these big #'s. Maybe they hold onto a lot of water, maybe they eat a lot of junk. I've done cleanses in the past and the more I've done the less I've lost. I'm not sure why but that's just been my experience. The kit itself has everything you need besides the fresh stuff but I personally think it's not needed to do a refresh like this. Drinking 3 shakes a day and sticking to fruit & veggies would have just about anyone drop some pounds and inches over a couple of days. I don't know if this kit is worth the $70 it costs. All in all, as much as I think it may be a good idea for some, for people like me with a long time in this weight loss journey & the knowledge I have, it's not worth the money. 



Do yourself a favor & do things right. Eat better, exercise & get to your goal like I know we all can. I'm starting tomorrow with a new game plan and will keep you posted! The best thing this cleanse gave me was a Refreshed outlook on my future & my potential to be great.



*the opinions above are based on my own experience