Sometimes you have to see how far you've come to understand how great you are doing.....
It's a strange thing....weight loss.
You think, well I'll just start losing weight and I'll look good annd feel good! Ehhhhh, Wrong Answer!
Sure you'll feel better and of course you will look better but only to everyone else...lol.
It's hard to wrap your head around it but it's the truth. 80lbs down and I still feel like that 255lb girl standing in front of the mirror.....happy with the life she created but saddened at what it had done to her body, what I had done to my body. The late night eating, the junk, not exercising, not caring about myself enough to make a change after all these years. And here I am....happy with my choices, my healthier eating, the exercising but still not happy with what I look like.
Truth? I don't think we're ever happy.....and that's probably a good thing. It keeps us from stopping, from settling. I get asked a lot what my goal is and I'm not sure anymore really....I wanted the scale to read a certain number but as I've grown stronger and more fit, that number seems obsolete. I'm not down very many lbs then I was months ago but I'm in different sizes then I was then....so, where does it end?
Not really sure...but I'm sort of okay with the fact that I'm just gonna keep going....for once, I'm not gonna stop!
|November 2010 / September 2013|