Monday, March 17, 2014

12 Weeks

You can do a lot in 12 weeks...I hope I'm able to.

I realized the other day that it was 12 weeks till my birthday. I realized that I can't be living like I have been. Only working out 2-3 days a week, eating garbage, not craving anything yet eating everything....I can't, I wont...the 190's are creeping back up towards me and I can't let that I'm in beast mode.

Called a trainer friend I've mentioned here before and had her tell me what I need to do...I work best when someone tells me a specific plan to follow. So I'll be eating 6x a day, cardio 5x per week & weights 3x per week. I'll get 1 rest day & 1 cheat meal a week. I'll try to document as much as possible. I'm weighing in the am and taking measurements & photos. I meal prepped for the next 6 is pretty much chicken, veggies, eggs and protein shakes. It's not fancy, but it'll be what I have to do to get back into the zone I was in pre holidays.

The other night, as I lay in bed, I prayed...I prayed for my motivation to come back. I'm not sure where it is and why I can't seem to find it... I can't keep living the way that I have been...and I can use all the excuses that I want but it's not going to change's not going to help. I have to stop making those excuses and just to make the changes I so badly want to feel.

I can't count on my motivation to always be there...there are gonna be many obstacles and challenges along the way...I can't let them stop me. I have to be better than all of that and prove to myself that I can do this. That I will do this. 


  1. This could totally be me writing the first part of this post. Thanks for the inspiration and kick in the pants I'm needing!

  2. Hi. In reading your story posted on Twitter I saw that you started out on Weight Watchers before switching to the My Fitness Pal App. I was wondering why you stopped doing WW? Do you think maybe you need the support of a group on a weekly basis? I really feel for you and your struggle getting the weight off for good and keeping it off. It took me 23 years and 7 attempts and many different diets but I finally lost (206 lbs this time) and have maintained for 15 months which is a record for me! You can do this but I bet going back to WW and attending those weekly meetings would be a great way to get that motivation back again. Either way I hope you finish your journey and find the motivation you need to get there.