I realized the other day that it was 12 weeks till my birthday. I realized that I can't be living like I have been. Only working out 2-3 days a week, eating garbage, not craving anything yet eating everything....I can't, I wont...the 190's are creeping back up towards me and I can't let that happen....so I'm in beast mode.
Called a trainer friend I've mentioned here before and had her tell me what I need to do...I work best when someone tells me a specific plan to follow. So I'll be eating 6x a day, cardio 5x per week & weights 3x per week. I'll get 1 rest day & 1 cheat meal a week. I'll try to document as much as possible. I'm weighing in the am and taking measurements & photos. I meal prepped for the next 6 days....food is pretty much chicken, veggies, eggs and protein shakes. It's not fancy, but it'll be what I have to do to get back into the zone I was in pre holidays.
The other night, as I lay in bed, I prayed...I prayed for my motivation to come back. I'm not sure where it is and why I can't seem to find it... I can't keep living the way that I have been...and I can use all the excuses that I want but it's not going to change anything...it's not going to help. I have to stop making those excuses and just work....work to make the changes I so badly want to see...to feel.
I can't count on my motivation to always be there...there are gonna be many obstacles and challenges along the way...I can't let them stop me. I have to be better than all of that and prove to myself that I can do this. That I will do this.