Fat to Fit.......Again

If you've read here before or even if you haven't, I'll give you a quick recap about me.....

I'm a mom of 3 kids (8,6 & 4) and started this blog after baby #3. I wanted to get back into shape once & for all. I worked out & ate healthy and went from 255 to 205lbs all on my own (and some hard ass work) then in 2013 I sought the help of my doctor because I had hit a 5 month plateau. She put me on an appetite suppressant. I didn't do much research and I didn't really have any direction from her but since she prescribed them, I thought nothing of it. They gave me energy, they helped me eat less and I continued to lose weight till I hit my lowest weight of 169lbs. Life was good.....till it wasn't. I was over exercising and under eating which isn't a good combo. I didn't think I needed the pills anymore so I stopped taking them & was managing my weight for a little while and then slowly it just creeped up to where I am now.......Here, the last day of 2015 & I've managed to creep up 50+lbs, 30 of which are just this year.

The question isn't "What happened?" It's "What didn't happen?"

Well, I didn't exercise. I probably haven't set foot into the gym since July and before then, it was just sporadic trips here & there. I can blame it on the fact that my favorite gym closed and that was part of it but I can't put all the blame on that. I didn't go....Period. I haven't tracked my food at all this year & I mean nothing. And with that, I didn't really watch what I put in my mouth either. It was nice sometimes, not having to watch what I ate, being able to indulge but when someone like me indulges it turns into over indulging in a daily basis. And then that turns into being disappointed in yourself for over indulging only to then emotionally eat which is usually something not healthy. It's a vicious cycle obesity is. And yes, I'm using the big O word. It's true, I'm obese. I'm overweight. I'm un-healthy. I'm tired of it. Tired of feeling like I live on a never ending loop. I've probably lost & gained 100's of pounds over the course of my lifetime and going round & round sucks. I'm like this giant hamster on this freaking spinning wheel that just doesn't stop, except for breaks of doughnuts & self pity. This whole diet thing takes a toll on you. Takes a toll on the mind and soul. My mind screams, I JUST WANT TO BE FIT ALREADY!!!! That's just not logical though. It's not an overnight thing, it's the rest of my life thing. And if this is going to be for the rest of my life, then I need to get it under control now, before I can't anymore.

So I'm Fat working on getting Fit again.....and I hope you will follow me along as I try to get myself to a place where I'm happy, inside & out.....mind & soul. 

I decided that this body of mine could use a cleansing of sorts. So I'm doing the Advocare 10 Day Cleanse . I've done it before and when I really follow it, I've had great results. I prefer this cleanse to others because it's not expensive ($36.95) and includes everything you need to complete the 10 days. The dietary restrictions are rough if your used to eating crap but that's why it works. You have to stay away from sugar, white carbs, caffeine & dairy. I've also enjoyed some of heir other supplements like Catalyst which are amino acids that help maintain your muscle mass & feed those things. And I really like their Probiotics. They keep me fuller longer and digestively healthy. With Advocare, you have the option of becoming a distributor for just $79.99. With that comes a 20% discount on products. I chose to go ahead and sign up seeing as I love multiple products and can now get them at a discount. It's not for everyone but I thought it made the most sense for me. In the past, I've had some of you follow along and do the cleanse with me & I would love that this time around as well! If you think about doing it or trying some of the products, think of signing up as a distributor. And if you do, I'll throw in the cleanse for FREE! So $79.99 will get you the distributor kit with 2 boxes of Spark (energy drink) and the cleanse. (Great value if you want to do the cleanse anyways & try the energy drink) If you want something more extensive, they have a 24 Day Challenge Kit that pretty much just starts after the 10 day cleanse ends. I haven't don't it before but they always have really cool challenge groups that keep you accountable. 

I'm really looking forward to trying to get back into this healthy mindset. I want to get back to that girl that loved working out & eating healthy. She passed up cake and would try new things at the gym. She was awesome & powerful & motivated. She was me....and I have to find her again. 

And to all you out there that have read & followed along on my journey, I appreciate all the well wishes & motivation you give me each & everyday even after me being gone for so long. It's hard to put yourself out there for all to see and you make it easy to do so, so Thanks for that!