Confessions.....

When I started this blog, I had to come up with a title.....I wanted it to be something that made sense to what I was writing about....what I would be talking about & sharing with you & sharing with myself. My Confessions.

I've shared a lot with you along the way....and coming up on 3 years gets me looking back at old posts, old confessions. I really didn't think it was going to take me this long to lose the weight....and it's still not all the way gone, I have about 40lbs to go. I guess I had more confidence in myself, in my ability to get this shit done. I haven't, obviously....I've learned a lot though over these 3 years and I still make excuses.....(that should be an obvious one seeing as I'm still not at goal but ya never know) I don't eat right. In fact, I've been eating a lot of crap lately....Twinkies (yes plural) a burger with onion rings & bbq sauce & I had Chinese food yesterday. I don't always workout...fun fact: it's been about 2 weeks....yeah I suck.

But that's why I write....that's why I put it all out there because I'm not perfect. I'm just a normal girl, struggling to lose the weight....and I've struggled my whole life. Am I happy with what I've been doing lately? Not in the least, but I haven't been able to come out of it....until this last day or so where something inside of me screamed "Why are you settling for this life, this weight?" I don't want to settle, I don't want to just "adjust" to being his weight. I've done that my whole life, I've done it over these last 3 years. I'm not doing it anymore. I'm fat, I'm unhappy, I'm unmotivated, I'm making excuses. All things that I don't want to be...so why am I settling? I don't know the answer but I do know what helps are my confessions. To you, to my friends & family....most of all, to myself. I'm not happy but I can't complain about it if I'm not willing to fix it...so this is me starting the process of fixing something that's broken.....and it all starts with a single confession....

What can you confess today?